And Then She Was 1

Didn't I just have Hailey? I mean, like the other week? Or at most like 6 months ago? Are you sure it's been a year?! I remember vividly my pregnancy and the waiting and the 8 days past due that I was when I went into labor the night after Mile's 3rd birthday party. We didn't know what to expect and were sure I'd have another c-section. You were full of surprises! My labor was very different and you came right through and then you were you! Oh remember that moment! I am having a real hard time grasping that my littlest baby girl is a year old. I remember Miles turning 1. It really didn't hit me until after his birthday and after his party. That following day, I had a tough time-some tears and some sadness. All bittersweet. I feel very similarly with Hailey, but it's not yet the day after. This year has gone so very fast though, and yet I feel like I remember it so well; there are so many details that I am treasuring-snapshots of our life as a family of 4. Snapshots of Hailey smiling and laughing or snuggling into my shoulder. Her first smile and first giggle. Snapshots of her hugging me tight when I pick her up from daycare. Snapshots of the weeks of tears leaving her on my way to work. Snapshots of Miles' loving smile, touch, and helpfulness with Hailey. His "sweet baby girl" phrases and wanting to make sure she's ok, always wanting to touch her cheeks and give her hugs and kisses. Snapshots of her searching for Dada in the other room. Her first steps, her first (and hopefully last!) trip to the ER. Her colds and coughs and lab tests for all her diarrhea. My baby girl is so so sweet. She has a heart of gold and a fire about her that is going to take her far. She knows what she wants and isn't afraid to ask (i.e. looking me straight in the eye and incessantly signing "milk" right in my face!) . She is determined and loving at the same time. She's got spunk and light in her eyes. She's beautiful and has so much potential. Ever inch of her is perfect. I always wanted children and I always imagined having a daughter. My first born son is irreplaceable. My daughter, just as much. There are so many mother daughter things I'm looking forward to doing with her. Her first birthday is a beginning and an end all at the same time. So many thoughts are going through my head! The dreams and aspirations I have for her and the feelings of being a mom of two wonderful children. The wonder of if our family is complete and the longing of my babies being babies. Oh my little Love Bug, Hailey Girl. You are a light in our life and a sweetness in our hearts. I love you so much, words cannot express!