Lost

So Miles had a tough day today at school. It started out a bit rough this morning before we even left, but I thought he had shook it. He didn't. Looks like we have to instill a reward system at school again for good behavior. When we were bug-bugging before bed, I was trying to talk about feelings and was suggesting things he may be feeling. I tried things like asking him if he ever got mad at mommy and daddy (he said yes), if he was sad (he said no), if he was upset with baby Hailey (he said no), if it was hard being small and having people tell you what to do (he said yes), etc. Then I asked him if it made him sad that I couldn't stay home with him and had to go back to work. He said, no, it didn't make him sad. He just lost me. I asked if he feels like he lost me when I went back to work and he said yes and that I work very far away. Needless to say, it broke my heart. We went on to talk about that some and how I always come back to get him and then we agreed to make a map tomorrow of how to get to work so he could find me. I think I may do that tonight so he can have it at school tomorrow if he needs it. Then he asked me if I missed him and I told him yes and gave him a big hug. Then he told me to make him happy and asked me to tickle him. I think needed to lighten the mood a bit, so of course I obliged.